What the FUCK do you want from me? WHAT??
I can not do any more. I can’t. I can’t do any more than this. Why can’t I just stop being so fucking disgusting.
It’s not fair. I can’t help it. I can’t help looking like this. I can’t do anything more. I have done EVERYTHING POSSIBLE.
Except die. And that won’t help.
I don’t want to die. Why am I not allowed to live? Why am I not allowed to live? Why do I have to feel ashamed of what I am? Why was I put inside this thing? I’m not disgusting inside, but that doesn’t matter, does it? Because everytime I catch my reflection, I want to tear myself to pieces and scream and burn myself.