Thank you for helping me - please read this
I am reluctant to say this because it is hard to convince some people of the intensity of a BDD episode. But it is comparable to a massive weight gain or a binge for an ED sufferer or an out-of-control compulsion episode with OCD, so I am hoping you will understand this and not think it exaggerated or ridiculous.
Last night I had a BDD attack. It was my worst for years. I got to the point where i was seriously contemplating and planning suicide. I still feel very close to the edge.
But for some reason, I went on tumblr in the middle of it. Maybe it was unstinctive because it is the first place i have ever truly felt supported. And I saw a bunch of ‘likes’ and encouraging comments.
And it just gave me enough to make me hang on.
God, I always think posts like this are cheesy and exaggerated and I NEVER thought I would be writing one, but I get it now.
I never let myself accept kindness before because I didn’t trust it. If you have liked or commented on my posts, this is just to let you know that it is true what they say: one small word or gesture of kindness can save a life.
Please don’t reblog this. It feels too personal. Thank you.