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Every human being judges another by the perception filter of their experience, including your parents… No one ever actually thinks anything about you. No thought can ever be fully about you. It is always going to be put through the perception of the ego.

“You Do Know: Learning to act on intuition instantly” by Becky Walsh

So much focus is put on finding out what we need to change, it’s no wonder we have no idea how to accept anything about ourselves.

I don’t have any more time to waste hating myself.

Things change NOW.

I spent the morning crying about how I have never enjoyed my life because it has always been overshadowed with shame.

Yet even knowing that I have wasted all that time, I can’t snap myself out of it.

But from now on, my priorityis to dismiss every unkind thought about myself as soon as I can.

I may not be able to love myself yet, but I can stop with the hate. I have to try. No one else is going to save what is left of my life. And that is what this boils down to: a fight to save my life before it’s all gone.

The book my mum bought me is good. I like it.

I don’t normally like self-help books because I feel like I’ve read everything they say so many times, I could scream, and it just seems like this endless list of what I need to do and think.

But this book doesn’t have a lot of exercises to do, it’s just one simple concept. I don’t know if it will work, but I am trying it.

What I am realising lately: I can’t improve how I look as long as I hate how I currently look. I can’t hate myself better.

Whatever I do to my appearance, as long as I hate myself, will never make it better. I have to do it back to front.

I have to find some way to love what I am right now. I mean all of it. Not tolerate, but actually love.

If I was anybody else, I could find a way to do that. Easily. Which actually says quite a lot.

It’s a weird paradox. And I’m noticing lately how much wisdom and the things that work best in life are pretty much aleays counter-intuitive. I guess that’s why they’re the things we struggle with and need the wisdom for. I guess that’s what wisdom is, really - coz the things that ARE intuitive, we just do them effortlessly and don’t need to think up wisdom to help us out.

novakian:

  • you’re allowed to contradict yourself
  • you’re allowed to seek attention or approval
  • you’re allowed to complain about something that’s bothering you
  • you’re allowed to express negative opinions
  • you’re allowed to be an ass sometimes
  • you’re allowed to talk about yourself
  • you’re allowed to fuck up

(via i-d-k)

One day you are going to realise that the little girl who thought she was nothing was everything after all, and the people who pretended to be everything were the ones who were nothing.

punkkimono